By Lisa Spodak ResultsNotTypical@worldnow.com
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Week 80 Weigh In:
Change this week: +3.5 lbs
Change overall: -95
Week 81 Weight In:
Change this week: -1 lb
Change overall: -96
I didn't write last week because my work day was just crazy and I didn't have time. But, honestly, I was sort of relieved to have a legitimate excuse because it's been a rough couple of weeks and I didn't know what to say.
Two weeks ago I was doing great. I had actually seen that 100-pound loss on my scale for a morning... I was officially just a pound away from my birthday goal... and I was feeling great about my progress.
And then I had the idea of doing a new comparison photo. I happened to be wearing the same dress that I knew I had worn for an earlier photo and I had recently had the dress altered, so I thought the change would be drastic and motivating.
A friend at work helped me put it together and when she finally emailed it to me, I was shocked - at how little a difference I saw. Almost a year and close to 40 pounds, and I didn't see it in the pictures.
Now, I'm not sure if it's that the change just becomes more subtle as time goes on or the dress wasn't as flattering as I thought it was or I have a warped sense of what my body looks like. But whatever it was, it bummed me out.
I've been trying to lose weight for a lot of reasons - for better health, for comfort and, admittedly, for how I look. And suddenly it felt like I had been working so hard and making so many sacrifices for so little return.
When I got home, I thought I would make myself feel better by trying on the dress I'm planning on wearing for my 40th birthday party next week. It's the same dress that I was thrilled to finally fit into again last October and I figured by now it would huge on me and desperately needing the altering I had scheduled with a friend for this weekend.
I easily slipped it on and zipped it up and it was loose. But not unwearable and not falling off of me like I had imagined. It was just a little loose.
So I think my motivation just faltered. When you're working so hard and not seeing results, suddenly it seems a lot more appealing to let up a little and enjoy yourself. If there won't be results either way, why work so hard? And I gained 3.5 pounds.
Then, of course, I talked to my Mom. And I talked to some friends. And (don't laugh!) I talked sternly to myself. And I got back on track.
Because I know that this is going to be rough and there will be ups and downs and I may not always be motivated and strong. And the results may not always be what I imagine, but I can't deny that change is happening! And, quite simply, I just have to keep going. Eventually I will see all the results I want and I'll hit all my goals.
I had a pretty good week after that and feel okay about losing just one pound. I was away on vacation for three days and any week where I lose when I've been on vacation is a good one!
And then something amazing happened.
I've had my eye on a special Tiffany necklace for a long time and, earlier this year, had decided that it would be my 40th birthday gift to myself if I lost 100 pounds.
I had mentioned it on Facebook a few times and posted a link to it as motivation for myself. And when I was so excited about being just a pound away from my goal, I posted it again.
And then I got a call from my brother. He told me his girlfriend, Lori, had seen my post and they wanted to make sure I didn't buy the necklace because they were going to get it for me for my birthday! I was blown away!
We decided that he'd order it online, have it delivered to him, and then bring it to New York when they come for my birthday party.
When I got back to work after my little vacation, I found a couple of boxes waiting for me on my desk. This wasn't too unexpected as I've been on an eBay shopping spree lately, snapping up Avon breast cancer bears to use in my fundraising. But when I opened the second box and found Tiffany wrapping tissue inside, I was a little bit taken aback.
Then I laughed, because clearly my brother had screwed up and had it sent to me instead of to him. But I wasn't sure what to do! I really wanted to open it, but I also knew he'd intended to give it to me for my party, so I didn't think I should. Then I saw the note...
The necklace wasn't from my brother! It was from an unidentified (at the time) group of my friends who had completely surprised me with their generous gift. Amazing!
Now that I theoretically had two gorgeous necklaces, I spoke to my brother and when he and Lori get to town, we'll go to Tiffany's together to exchange their necklace for something else I can wear on the night of my party.
As much as I love the necklace, the best part is that it really reminded me of how much support I have on this journey and what amazing friends and family I've been blessed with. It reminded me of how much work I have done and how far I've come and how I have so many people pulling for me as I do it.
It totally gave me the push I needed to get back on the right path. And while I'm still four pounds away from my goal with only a week to go, I'm going in the right direction again and the dangerous slip backwards has stopped.
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