SAN FRANCISCO, Calif. (KRON) — Vanessa Bryant is speaking out about the loss of her husband, Kobe Bryant, and their 13-year-old daughter, Gianna, two weeks after they were killed along with seven others in a helicopter crash.
Vanessa posted a video of Gigi playing basketball on Instagram Monday morning along with a heartbreaking message where she opens up about how she’s dealing with the loss of part of her family.
“My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone,” she said.
Vanessa wrote that’s she’s been reluctant to write about her feelings but she wanted to share them for people who have experienced the pain of losing someone.
She explains that she’s having a hard time processing the loss of her husband and daughter at the same time.
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I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live. Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.
“It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me,” Vanessa wrote. “It feels wrong.”
She also said she’s “mad” that her “baby girl” doesn’t get the opportunity to wake up to another day.
“I’m so mad,” she wrote. “She had so much life to live.”
She ends the post by asking everyone to continue to pray for all the victims.